Angry and Itchy!
I am a lucky girl in many aspects. I have a loving home with an incredible partner, I have a great job (now), I have a car, I have food, I can walk….yet I’m angry and when I’m not angry, I’m dead inside. It is starting to get old. I miss being carefree and silly. I’m sure Main Squeeze misses it too! Don’t think I’m not trying, but it’s gonna take time apparently. It was the same when my sweet Mom died a few years ago. Really bad stuff happens and you get BOILING, FIRE-SPITTING ANGRY because that helps a little and simply because you are so damn foot-stomping mad that you have no say in the matter. It just is.
Ok, I find myself getting pretty deep here. Maybe if I approach the problem at hand by challenging myself – things will get better. Today I challenge myself not to tell anyone to go fuck themselves or to NOT punch anyone in the face. Think that is doable? I sure hope so, because with my fused back, I don’t think jail would be good for me.
Just wanted to stop in and say that this is where I am – I hope I can still provide some smiles. Today, I came across a blog that made me FEEL something, so for all of you out there having any kind of emotional struggle – this is for you. Please read and look at the pictures – it’s purely genius. I’ll be here looking for my little bit of corn.
http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/
Coming Soon: Ten Reasons Living Dilbert Would Not Fair Well in Prison
Living Dilbert 
LD, your hive filled, pissy, foul mood self is loved everyday. One day at a time…and I know you know that.
Can’t wait for next post. Maybe your readers can suggest some too! like…your mouth will get you in trouble!
OMG! Whatever you have, it’s contagious! I’ve had it for weeks and it’s ever so slowly getting worse! It’s harder and harder not to tell them all to go to hell and don’t stop for coffee on their way! Anger is a good thing, but . . . I so hate getting up on weekday mornings because I hate where I know I’m going.
I love you and I truly do understand. Let that angry voice out. May I suggest plastic cups and bean bags? Throwing either one is relatively safe to other things – and people. xoxoxox
Oh, LD, you read my mind! I was gonna recommend Allie’s blog to you if you hadn’t read it already.
Been there, still have the permanent tread marks somewhere on my skin.
Good to hear from you!
Jenni Engledow Sent from my iPhone
I can totally empathize…except without the hives.
I think life would be easier if you could punch someone in their smug #$!@ attitude dontcha think? I find using Darth Vaders Imperial March as internal theme music helps. As does saying “hulk smash” under my breath.
I feel I’ve revealed too much of my demographic.
Don’t know if this would be helpful (or if you’re in a place that you want something helpful) but here it is nonetheless. Mock if you must. https://www.superbetter.com/ Watch the video on the home page; the creator is a video game designer who created the site as a way to try to get herself back into a good place after a concussion. She explains it in the video. Or just hate the sun. And purple. Best wishes.
SO happy to see a post from you! Hang in there!
I was angry/irritated for a long time and went on anxiety meds to make it better. That worked for a bit but after much soul searching and a desire to get off my daily anxiety cocktail, I realized that at the bottom of it all, I have severe control issues. I’m working through those now and find that juicing and a daily walk with myself helps me. Yoga isnt too far down the road either. Hope you’re able to find a solution that works for you. A great partner deserves the best person you can be. Xoxo
I can relate for sure. Glad to see this post and hope writing it helped a little. You are not alone in this my friend- or in anything. There are many of us who love and support you and will gladly bail you out if needed! Hell- I’ll kick ass with you and let someone bail us both out! A sad anniversary is coming up and it’s hard not to feel things are a little harder than usual- or a lot harder. Lean on us whenever you want. xoxoxo
Maybe you could just punch people in the neck today…
Absolutely love your blog!! And couldn’t resist nominating you for The Versatile Blogger Award! Yippity doo lucky you… actually, it’s a wee bit less glamourous than The Oscars 🙂 But here’s the link for more info:
http://versatilebloggeraward.wordpress.com/vba-rules/
Every woman I have ever known has swung between a profound non communicative state and wild-eyed, universe-blaming anger. It’s probably my fault.